Missing creativeness and feeling dark

I’ve got to be honest, I find it really difficult to be creative when I’m struggling in my personal life. Anytime that I have a difficult day or something is upsetting me I find that my creativity doesn’t leave, but it becomes quite dark.

This last weekend was a bit tough for our family, so my artwork has ended up being quite bleak. This rose is something I’ve been wanting to try and create for a while, but my original intention was to make it in pinks and purples. In the end it has become dark blue and black.

Although it means I’m not feeling too great, I’m glad I’ve still managed to do some digital art and find the creativity in the bleakness.

I think the dark blue colours contrast with the black background really nicely and although it’s not my usual bright colour way, I did enjoy making it.

I can’t tell you how many individual brush strokes this piece took. Well in to the thousands! But I can’t work out how to improve it, so I’ve stopped here.

I’ve also started work on something a little brighter – a magnolia piece. Again this is something I’ve been wanting to do for a while, but I’m hoping I can keep the dark colours at bay!

Thanks for looking and if you’ve visited please feel free to leave a comment below. I’d love to hear from some of my viewers!

Published by stephc2021

Hi! I'm Steph, an amateur writer and illustrator specialising in Mental Health and being a self-confessed Spoonie. My website is home to any successful fiction I create, with stories that have won so far covering difficult subjects such as baby loss and mental health in grief as well as some funny and heart-warming tales when I get the inspiration. Every drawing and picture on my website was created by me. I spend a lot of time coming up with illustrations to accompany all of my posts and pages. I try to create original content across all of my channels, whether I'm writing about my own fiction or just generally musing on mental health or my own issues. I want to be part of the change because I believe the understanding of MH in the UK is getting better, but has a very long way to go. By being honest about my own struggles and symptoms I think others will relate and hopefully it will encourage them to talk to someone and get the help and support they need. Long term my goal is to help children too, help them understand their own mental health and how to help with the mental health of those around them. I live in the UK with my partner, daughter and dog, I swear frequently and I adore a well made, traditional, gooey, chocolatey, delicious brownie.

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