Grief, resurrected

My grief is heavy. It’s heavy every day from the minute I wake up to the second I drift off again. It sits on my shoulders always, but from time to time it’s quiet and I’ll forget for a bit, then out of nowhere I’ll be reminded of the space that exists, the space theyContinue reading “Grief, resurrected”

Wanted : friend

I think I’m having my first real creative crisis. It’s come from nowhere. 2022 arrived and there seemed to be a world of ideas, projects and opportunities for me to think about. My partner is the one who deserves the credit for everything I’m about to pour out on this post. I was telling himContinue reading “Wanted : friend”

Hats

You’re a wearing a hat. Yes, you. You’ve got a hat on right now, even if you don’t realise it, even if you don’t like hats. I imagine you in a deerstalker with the obligatory pipe too. And now you’re frowning, creating thick lines above your eyebrows as you wonder what the fu*k I’m onContinue reading “Hats”

Selected for Childrens Mental Health Week

It’s always a wonderful thing to have a successful Short Story that wins or gets selected for a competition. In the Secret Attic Weekly Write last week (week 5) my story was the first selected entry, and I was absolutely thrilled. The story itself, including the difficult content and the timeframe of submission, was probablyContinue reading “Selected for Childrens Mental Health Week”

Isolation – the lonliness pandemic

Before I steam in to this post, I need to acknowledge the serious reality of lonliness for some people and make it clear that I’m not trying to pull the ‘woe is me’ card. Although I feel lonliness and am basically isolated, I’m acutely aware there are others suffering and alone in a far moreContinue reading “Isolation – the lonliness pandemic”

In memory…

For the first time, I’m going to use this blog in a very self-indulgent way, but it’s going to help me cope this year with the grief train that starts on this day annually and plagues me until December. In no way do I expect anyone to read on, but if you chose to doContinue reading “In memory…”

Surprise! Stress approaching!

Sunday morning. Breakfast in bed with a steaming, sugary latte and the sound of white noise lingering as the tv news reports murmur and traffic starts to build outside. You munch a pain aux chocolat (because you’re classy…even if the pastry is landing all over your Egyptian cotton sheets) and sip at your coffee, savouringContinue reading “Surprise! Stress approaching!”

Supportive Support

What the f*ck am I going on about? Supportive Support?? The title is catchy and crap at the same time. A bit like me. But despite this there is an idea, or maybe just an opinion 😜, behind all this. This post is dedicated to our collective need for genuinely supportive support. Therapists, counsellors, helplineContinue reading “Supportive Support”

Tell it to the judge!

Happy Thursday friends! My goodness have I had a week. Have you had a busy week? Are things going well? Or are you having a difficult week? Maybe there’s too much going on. Allow me to distract you for 5 minutes with my news. This is self indulgent, I know. But if I can’t putContinue reading “Tell it to the judge!”

Where did my personality go?

Who am I? Why am I like this? Am I really still the one in charge? Questions I ask myself regularly in bed, normally in the dead of night or when I wake up and feel that dazed and confused strangeness. But the questions happen for a reason. Things have changed since my mental healthContinue reading “Where did my personality go?”